Battered and Bruised

In this house I call my home
These walls surround me
And close in now

All I felt was helpless and lost
From years gone by
As my heart paid the cost

Of the price I paid
Many years ago
When I was stripped
Of Body and soul

How the beatings came
And never ceased
One after the other
To say the least

My body was bruised
But my heart and soul
Took the worst of it
And it's taken its toll

Mentally, I became unfit
My heart was broken in little bits
My soul was buried so deep inside
From pain inflicted, I thought it had died

For way back then
You could not cry for help
No one would listen
So you blamed yourself

On what a bad person
You had become
You prayed to God
And Jesus His Son

Why, am I so bad
What did I ever do
To take this abuse
through and through

I tried to be good
And thought did my part
To keep my family together
With all of my heart

But mental and physical
It took its toll
I lost faith in myself
And built a wall that would hold

To keep everyone out
And take the hurt away
For within this wall
In peace I would stay

But as the years went by
The walls came crumbling down
I started my life over
And listened for Heaven's sound

I started believing
And trusting again
In God, in my Country
And my fellow man

But every so often
Someone cuts me so deep
With a knife just of words
That it tears at my sleep

I thought i could trust them
And they were my friend
But the knife just went deeper
Till there was no end

Of the pain and the torture
That I had to endure
Please Lord, no more walls
Of this I am sure

Let me forgive them
Then send them away
For my heart to start mending
Again through the days

For I no longer blame myself
Of things I can't control
And let ME, believe in ME
Spirit, body, and soul

For now I know
That it wasn't my fault
And for all of the years
That I felt so lost

I have gained back my pride
In myself once again
Don't let me slip backwards
To the torture and pain

For I hold my head high now
And my body is healed
I have forgiven my tormentor
My fate it is sealed

Until I go home
To the Heaven's above
I know I am blessed
With God's sweet lasting love

Written by Judy N. Marquart

This poem is coprighted by me and is not to be used without my permission

midi "I Will Survive"